Dude. Have A Heart.

I was studying for my biochem final when I came across an article about Down Syndrome. We had to learn about different genetic disorders and diseases on the molecular level and Down Syndrome was one of the things we had to look at. I was reading the article and it said that in 2002, 90-91% of all Down Syndrome fetuses were aborted. I was floored by this statistic. Wow. In this fairly conservative and Christian society, how could 90-91% of Down Syndrome fetuses be killed??? Is it okay to abort babies with genetic mutations but not okay to abort "healthy" babies? Down Syndrome kids are healthy too. They just have difficulties that must be addressed. How is that different from any other child? What if a fetus was tested to develop type-1 diabetes by age five? Would you go to the doctor and get the kid sucked out too? I mean I get why parents would abort a child with Down Syndrome. I get it. But shit, come on!!! It's your baby! No matter what, it is YOUR child.

I am pro-abortion under certain circumstances. If a woman is raped, sure, she can have the option. If the fetus is suffering in the womb or is proven to potentially kill the mother, then it should be an option. But just because the baby might be developmentally disadvantaged or might be a little difficult to raise? No. When I have children and one might have Down Syndrome or is born somehow mentally retarded, big deal! The kid is mine and I'm going to love them no matter what. I will go through whatever I have to to give my children a great and productive childhood. It's just fucked up that so many people aren't going to give their potential children a chance in life. It's also horrible that the parents are that self-centered. Self-centered parents make no sense. But that's another blog huh? It's a type of genetic eugenics and infanticide.

Oh My Gosh!

I finished my Pharmacy paper today!!! I am so relieved that I finished one class. Seriously. I had to write a ten-page paper addressing anything about cosmetics. I began with children and teens using cosmetics. It definitely didn't work out. It would have been a good small paper but this is like long as hell. So I switched over to tanning. There was so many other things to address about tanning! I mean I go tanning and stuff and I learned a lot about tanning. And it's a little scary! Shit! Oh well. I love being tan.

I have four finals next week. That is insane. I'm a little nervous for two of them. My biochem and Soc 415 finals. I hate biochem. Seriously. Hate the shit out of it. I hate the professor. He's a little bitch. I don't think I'm going to pass the class. Oh well. And I think I will do well in 415. I'm just nervous because I need 415 to graduate with a degree in sociology. It's a lot of pressure to pass the class. AND the professor is going to give us our thesis papers back right after we turn in the final. I'm like are you fucking serious??? That makes me even more nervous! I wish he gave us the paper earlier. Oh well. It is how it's going to be. My other finals, H 312 and Soc 437, should be easy. That AIDS class is a joke dude. A joke. It's going to be so easy. And Soc 437 is just going to be easy. Seriously.

I can't wait until the term is over!!! Spring Break!!! :D :D :D

Hmmm... I'm Not Emo.

I thought I was being too emo for the past couple of weeks. I don't think I'm emo but I'm in an unhappy place right now. I wrote a note on Face Book about it. I feel like I'm trying to grow up and mature a little but I don't have support from my friends. I mean I have support from my friends, just not the ones that are supposed to be my close friends. I feel like they just don't care. I haven't seen one of them in weeks. And we used to hang out every day. I don't know what happened. He's always been very flaky but not like this. It's just disappointing. I feel like we've grown apart for no reason at all. Another one is just... I don't know. I wrote about her on Face Book and I sincerely apologize for doing that. I should have talked to her about it rather than write about it elsewhere. I really do feel sorry for doing that kind of shit. But I do feel those things. It's not really her fault. I am what I am.

I think, now that graduation is really, really close, I'm getting a little nervous about after graduation. I mean I would love to go to grad school. I have two careers in mind: social work and public policy. I've always wanted to work with people. I'm a computer nerd and everything but I think I'm much happier working with people. I also want to change the world. At least, I want to change some things in our world today and make things more equal. The dominant group has been in power for too long. There needs to be some new blood in the mix. And President Barack Obama's nomination really inspired me. I do have two other dreams: law school and politics. I want to become a lawyer not just because of the money but because it's getting at the root of justice. Lawyers have always fascinated me. They can pretty much twist anything and I think that takes a lot of logical thinking. Plus, I like learning about laws and how it works. Maybe that's why I want to get into politics. I want to get into the government. That is where the public policy comes in. I want to change laws. I feel like there are too many things in our law books that just make no sense. They need to be updated and follow modern lifestyles. Plus, there are like no Asians in the American government. I think I can infiltrate that. Definitely.

Anyway, those are my thoughts of the day. Enjoy.

Here's a copy of my FaceBook Note:

I'm in a weird place in my life. I'm trying to reevaluate my shit and get myself straight. But it's hard when it seems like I have no support from my friends. Especially from the ones that seem like my close friends. Everyone seems so wrapped up in their own lives. I mean I know that it's not fair to ask people to drop things just like that. But it would be nice to see some consideration. It would also be nice if people matured a little. Honestly. I'm tired of the bullshit. I find myself being fairly lonely. Which really sucks. I mean I haven't changed that much. I feel like I have just begun to grow up a little. Which is what I need.

I went home this weekend. It was nice to see my friends at home but one friend in particular just pissed me off. We hung out but all we did was talk about her. She didn't ask me what I'm doing in my life right now. She didn't ask anything actually. All she did was talk about her fucking self. She makes her life out to be some sort of horrifying nightmare but you know, I just don't see why she's complaining. She puts herself in that place. It's not anyone else's fault but her own but she doesn't see that. And she sees a reason to make everyone else suffer. She makes me depressed. And I am rarely sad. She makes me feel insignificant. I want to stop hanging out with her but I feel an obligation. We have a lot of history and shit has happened. I don't know what to do with this. I wish she would get over herself.

I've been finding the Dalai Lama's words inspiring. I have added my favorite quotes to my profile. I want to better myself. I need to grow up a little and be a little serious about my future. I fucked up school enough freshman and sophomore year. It's time to fix it!

Honestly.

Yesterday, my AIDS teacher took literally twenty minutes trying to figure out what was wrong with the projector. It was great to not do anything for twenty minutes but it was also frustrating. My sociology professor also takes unnecessary time to figure out how to work the DVD player or the disk drive in the computer. It is aggravating to wait for professors to try and show a video. Most do not know how to work the current technology used for learning at OSU.

My proposal: Every current and future professor, instructor, and teacher must take a technology class to learn how to use the computers, projectors, controllers, the fucking sound even! Is it really that hard to work the sound on a computer? No dude. The same sociology professor struggles with the sound before showing a Youtube clip every single time. It's ridiculous. Teachers and professors should know how to work the things provided by the university for teaching and learning. Stop wasting time trying to turn up the sound or playing with the focus on projectors! Annoying!